I'm still not sleeping.
It sucks. I mean maybe it doesn't suck, I'm not a huge fan of sleep. But I know I need it. It's important to sleep. Maybe I wouldn't have some of the problems I do have if I were able to sleep more. But whatever. It's not that bad because I don't feel tired. Maybe it's a sign that I'm too inactive? I'm workin on that! I can finally do qigong again. Sort of. But it's a huge improvement over the pukish, nausea that I used to get a few weeks ago.
But one positive of waking up super early is that I feel like reading The Bible. AND Matthew Henry's commentary. 0.o I have always read my Bible every day...until I started chemo. I figured God understood the breaks. I would try to get back into it but these last years it's been intermediate at best. So it's nice to finally have the concentration to really read it again with some sort of regularity.
This morning I read 1Corinthians 10. Paul really has it out for these guys =) but ch.10 was a flip in tone and pretty interesting.
Maybe I thought it was interesting because of a recent conversation I had with a friend. But I think what Paul talks about here is pretty profound because he's laying out how we as Christians are all unified. Like the spiritual atheist you know, or the Buddhist monk you once met, he's telling us and reminding us that we're all in the same boat.
But he makes a distinction about what we're doing in that boat. (There's some good history here so read up if interested, or post a comment and I'll do my best to explain what I've garnered). On one hand, let's bring this into the present, the Christian is sacrificing his life for God. Ideally, everything we do we dedicate to God. Our souls have been transferred into the very hands of God. GOD! So we should act like it. Show some respect! Right? But on the other we live in a very non-God world. How do we reconcile these? Run away from anyone that you haven't met in Church? Well Jesus SPEWS FROM HIS MOUTH the 'lukewarm' Christians...
Maybe I should quote more because in the previous chapters Paul stresses the importance of how there is no reason to separate ourselves as Christians from the rest of the world. It's almost un-Biblical if not impossible.
"To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God’s law but am under Christ’s law), so as to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. " 1Corinthians 9:21/22
Wait, now it sounds like in Ch.10 he's contradicting what he said in Ch.9. How can you not drink of the table of "devil's" yet "[be] all things to all people?" Simple. He's talking about the heart. What is going on inside. Ya know, the only thing that MATTERS to God ;)
I fear that too many Christians, and non-Christians that read parts of the Bible like what Paul is talking about here, get upset about this 'segregation' that comes up with Christians and you heathen beasts (teeheehee). I just don't think that segregation should exist. I don't think that's the intent.
"Let no man seek his own, but every man another's wealth."
That's probably the point of the whole thing. Not money, but the wealth of the individual. Their spiritual, physical, and mental wealth. Love them. Don't shun them.
Ya know in my head this whole post was a lot shorter, concise, and well executed. I hope you get something out of it. I read it now and it sounds like I'm painfully confused....
Also, I wanted to talk about GAMES. I've been playing more lately. Actually I've been DOING more lately. I finished editing my graphic novel (again). I split the big single volume into 3 smaller parts. It works a lot better this way. Hopefully I've improved my characters too because, as a writer..well I'm not a writer. I'm pretty terrible.
I started collaborating with a guy in France, Jean-Baton. That's been AWESOME. I hope we keep writing stuff, it's really great. Maybe we'll get a single out for you guys to hear.
But GAMES! I've got all these games that I've never been able to finish so I'm going through and playing through them. Manly because there are a bunch of games coming down the horizon that I'm really excited about. FireFall, a free FPSMMO entering invite-beta at the end of the month looks to mix Tribes with Borderlands in a persistent online world.
And speaking of Tribes, we get a free Tribes too!!!!
Not to mention the upcoming Diablo 3, Deus Ex, DOTA2... it's all a bit much. so I need to catch up whilst I can! But being productive is getting in the way! =) ha, that's the best thing ever!
peace love and chicken bacon!